| | With Christmas rolling around the corner, my seasonal status at Best Buy is really starting to kick in. I'm pretty much working like a full-timer; and I have to say.. it's pretty fun. At least for Digital Imaging department! Wee~ I get to rant to people all day about how camera savvy I am. And it feels GOOD. And it is seriously true when people say they lose track of what day of the week it is when they start to work so much. I still don't know if I really have the dSLR or not because I haven't even been home. Augh. I really feel like I'm missing out on the Christmas spirit this year. No warm house, no Christmas decorations, not even NYSNC Christmas CD! ;O I'm shocked myself. Instead, I get to drive 10 miles in the rain and talk to people who are panicking about not knowing what to get their loved ones. I made cheesecake to fill the void of Christmas spirit. If I had a camera I'd take a picture of it.. but I don't. Haha. Just a plain cheesecake with chocolate graham cracker crust and also chocolate drizzled on the top. Yummyy~ I'll be going home on Christmas Eve and leaving on the Friday afterwards. Some vacation.. hopefully I'll be able to switch shifts with a co-worker so I can go home on Saturday instead. Seasonal sucks.
Being up here in Riverside can get pretty lonely by myself, especially knowing that so many of my friends are in San Diego and hanging out with each other. But what can you do, right? At least I'm making bank. 8) But there are also a couple of reasons why I'm happy I'm not in San Diego, as well. For instance, awkward moments with the group; mostly because Vicky and I are now broken up with a couple of guys in our group. I'm kind of glad I'm not there to be pissed off about people's immaturity about those kinds of situations. Which brings me to my REAL rant..
Why is it that some guys have the stupidest ways of coping with a break-up? And why is it so easy for people to break agreements in break-ups? What I'm really annoyed at is the fact that I was told that things would be mutual, with "no taking sides" between our friends; instead, apparently there's complaining and pity. I HATE it when people pull the pity card on you. I already feel like crap enough, will it really make you feel any better if you shove the pity card in every else's face to make them side with you? Where in the world went the "no taking sides" agreement?! Also, it's really annoying when you know the truth about something, but you're treated like an idiot that doesn't hear about anything. We're humans. We talk, we share news, and it spreads fast. I guess because of what happened, I don't have any right to be concerned. Bottom line, being a dumb emo person does not make me feel sorry; in fact, it makes me angry and frustrated. I'm just reminded of another reason on why our relationship would not work. After everything we've been through, I thought that our memories of each other would at least be some kind of reason on why we can move on with respect for each other and ourselves. There's just too much that we've gone through to make it a bad relationship in the end. And somehow, that's what it's measuring up to: a bad end for a doomed relationship. That's what I think of now. And I'm disappointed that it had to come out like this. All the talk about being "best friends" really doesn't work out as easily as people think it does I guess; or maybe only with my ex-boyfriends. I don't want to think of you that way, so don't make me. Be real.
Real eyes.
Realize.
Real lies.
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